From Michael Deaustch To the Premiere Poet To Ma Blog…LoL

Michael Boy Dynasty Duestch

“It’s Reality”

Seriously I am happy
Seriously I am sad
Secretly I wonder what to think
Sincerely yours, I am glad
Distinguishing what is real based on what and how I feel
But what if I couldn’t see it; yet I know it’s still there
Wonder if people that stopped talking to me still care
Perhaps I am my own worst enemy for being there for you
Very few people have been there you know who you are and you know that it’s true
You damaged the heart of a good soul what did I ever do to you?
But it doesn’t matter anymore; I’ll live for the future
I’m ready to see what’s ahead as life can be bad it must be better off than being dead
Even if you can’t feel me one day you will
Even if you can’t see me trust that you will
I’m not perfect, I make mistakes, and I’m only human
Just like you were more in common than you thought
Look at the pain we have been thru
When I reflect on where I am I know that I’m wrong for letting those go
I haven’t done anything wrong it’s all inside of me all inside my head
But I’m strong I let the pain you caused continue to eat me away
I sit here and blame myself as if I had control on how to manage my days
Life is short it’s not too late change my ways
But if I change one thing I’ll end up changing it all
If I could go back in time I would have been able to save her, would have saved them all
But I wasn’t as strong then, this is now, this is who I am
You can’t see me, hardly know what it’s like to be me
Wishing that I would be there to make you laugh when you need to, to hold you when you cry if I have to
I’ll never be able to tell anyone how I truly feel
I hope to see you someday, hope that you’ll need me one day
Maybe in church on Sunday
I believe in fate and destiny
A reason for everything
Necessary to question anything
We live life in the wrong way
You’re entitled to your perspectives and theories
This world isn’t black and white
Whatever happened to the visions of the shades of grey?
You realize your life all wrong the whole way thru
So you walked away, head down in shame
Saying to whoever would listen you wouldn’t go back, wouldn’t change one thing, yet something holds you down
I wonder who will comment yet alone is still reading
Probably the same names and familiar faces
I already know what the comments will sound like
I might as well press the auto record and post them onto a sound byte

I keep hearing its good Mikey its deep
It’s real talk Mikey make me think good job now I’m going to sleep
I am back like there is no tomorrow
Maybe today could be the last so no remorse and no sorrow
No, I am not the baddest or cool
Maybe I am blind but I am no fool
I know when I am being used, hustled, and abused
I know about your schemes I am picking up the pieces of a dream, yet still have one
Somehow like a hurricane do loneliness comes out and creeps all up on you
Inside my head voices bang and the angel sings
Seriously if it could all end tomorrow
The end of my world the end to that I know
Wake up to all lies, no friends, no girls, no cars, no shoes, and no clothes
Living for today because it could all be gone tomorrow
Don’t dwell on the past because you’ll never get it back
The best way to remember is to still love them when they’re gone nonetheless my ticket to heaven is one call away
As I continue to write this my pain withers and starts to fade away too
Can you see me like I can see you?
Watching you, suddenly helping you through
It irks me your a good person works too hard, yet still struggles
You can count on me to be there
Someone who will always listen and someone who will always care
I’ve been rejected enough times if you knew you think I was pathetic
But the more I try to do right the more it seems I have to lie about
Look to see if what you’re doing is productive
Take a few seconds if you can, put the blame on me if you must
I’m use to it, I ‘m use to it all
All of the lies, deception, money, greed, jealousy and envy are these deadly sins within your personality
On a side note: I chose to stop writing because I felt like it was the only reason people would love and care about me, especially girls. Having this I guess so called gift with words of being a poet and always stay writing things poetically. The more days piled up I was getting worse to a point where my writing was garbage and belonged in a recycling can. I decided to come back because in my heart I knew I can and I still have it in me. Write reality, to continue and write truthful things, goals of writing bigger and better things. I too am America I’m living in the aftermath of Martin Luther’s Dream.
Let’s relieve the pain, make a toast to the good life that is ahead, let’s talk, and get to know each other, laugh and cry. We live for the moments that change us the good, the bad, and the ugly. Most importantly, I hope that together we can find what will save us a cure to whatever had, has, or may break us. I want to help you find your smile again it would be like finding a new found religion for me all over again.
I have my views like you, my theories as you may do too. I’ll make sure of it that I will not let you down, and you can count on it. I should thank you for allowing me to be the voice that is needed. I am the voice that is needed to be heard. I am the person that could become your everything. The type of guy girls should be with while guys hope I get shot.
The changing of a season= premature hating for no reason.
Mikey or you can call me…Boy Dynasty.

BEST OF BOTH OFFICES: JADAKISS UNCENSORED

 

Chapter 14: Homecoming

Listen/Download Here[Raw Footage Below]:

http://www.zshare.net/audio/1616142831e91d95/

 

                             

…gotta feel it

No Title Yet!

It’s a rap…it’s over…im done…like he said…”ima wash ma hands of this” Wasnt quite sure what that meant til now…but NOW could’nt be as clear as ever! Im standing in this ring and thought it was my turn to get knocked out, but FUCK that from now on. I no longer will be there for the knock out, if anything im knockin’ everyone out now. Wasting my time with the steroids[the drugs], the training[the family], etc….i dont need it…for what?! just be upset at my results in the end…? Those things dont build…”the ultimate fighter” but the pains, heartaches…blah,blah, fuckin’ blah…that’s how i’ll build from now on. I’ve got everything i need…the hate, the love, the passion, the cold heart, and the carelessness….

 

…let the game begin!

Ludacris- Undisputed

This by far is Luda’s best video..the following is the 1st video off his new album Theatre of the Mind. Once again…another GREAT video…peep Lil’ Bam Bam cameo??? the lil’ dude is NiicE!..LoL. This could possibly be Luda’s best album….Mmmm maybe..what you think? well i guess you wont know til the album drops…sucks for you!…

• “…run up in the stands like the Indiana Pacers…” LoL..i remeber watching that!
• “…women on my nutts, like where the Titanic go…?”
• “…making my fans catch the holy ghost like ya’ mom does at church…”
• “…million dollar whips that i ship from over seas…”
• “…the name of my car insurance is…it’s your fuckin fault…!”
• “…ill call up my boys and have you stripped of your medols like Marion Jones…”

enough…watch this amazing movie…datx rite..aint no music video…this a movie!

P.S. the opening shot is….uhhhh CRACK!

Nothing Left

Go away! Go away! Fuck off! there’s something inside…wants to let loose, wants to destroy, wants to scream. All sorts of things that seem horrible but when listened to and though about…seems as good as the offer that Hitler made to Germany [NO PUN INTENDED]

will you help me? when i need help?!

 will you be there? when im stuck?!

nope…what about him…or her…? nope..cuz ive seen it all, the one’s that ask “why”…you can go fuck yourself! the one’s that had no believe…cut the break line on your car and hit 100 m.p.h. on a freeway. For those of you look at me different…o well..i guess ill just look at you differently now too. The disagreements…i encounted them…

For example that first night…he swang, i swang, he pulled out the knife…he said…

“walk away and never come back…”

I ask “what if i do…?” and he replies…”then you’ll have nothing left!” i was tired of living in their shadow…in their spotlight…never to shine on my own, except that ONE night were nothing mattered. Where the night faded as i did. Looking in the mirror…i see…i see…i see….i cannot tell you what i see. cuz everytime i look i see something different. maybe i should take a picture…it’ll last longer..LoL. The cars, the money, the rush…all of it…gone! but im glad it’s gone…nothing to worry about and nothing to care for. The heart…ehhh who needs one in this buisness…certainly not me…i had to learn to let it go. but there is something i held and never spoke of…it was….well…i guess ill hold onto that forever.

• To my future wife, “hi”
• To my future son, “hi”
• To my future house, “hi”…LmAo

To my future itself…”come get me!” nah i aint ready but if not now then when? when im at their house? eating their food while they explain to me how they got it all. nah fuck that shit! straight up! fuck all of that…yea you’ll get yours…and i’ll get mine, and when i do….

I’ll have nothing left…

T.I. – What Up, What’s Haapnin’

Now, this is what i call a fuckin’ MUSIC VIDEO…LoL. starts off at the Bowen Homes[yea, i no Shawty Lo shot his video there too but it aint look as good...neways...LoL.] BtW…shoutz out to Rob & Big, Bread & Meat, Sandwich, or as ya’ll probably know ‘em…Travis & Demetris for takin’ me there n showin’ me what it do in tha “A.” Doing what the southern artists do…ridin’ through tha hood. Dat stoop shoot! one word…AWESOME! tha angles on it, transitions…need i say more??? Aint really too much goin on like in these so-called R&B videos were your confused half way through.LLs. Did you see that hyped ass high five T.I. gave when he got out that black car..? fuckin’ priceless! O…the whole Center Hill Cedar Ave. shot…i love it when they do those..iono why just do, deal with it! Why do niggas always sleep on T.I. until he comes out with an album…? tha king aint goin nowhere! Ahhh the infamous cookout shot…ya’ see Lil’ Duval’s ass?!?

• HAHAHAHA!!!!

Like i said this is a fuckin’ MUSIC VIDEO!

Getting Creative

Driving down this thing called “LIFE”, the wind blowing in my face after the top has reclined, the adrenalin rush from going 100 m.p.h. , with no one to stop you is almost too much for even you to handle. Although while driving down this road ive seen many things along the way. I’ve ate at some of the nicest places you’ll ever see. I’ve seen accident’s that are too painful to describe. I’ve also encounted the police which usually end up as you’d probably guess…with me in cuffs. The freedom you have while driving down this thing is incredible. It seems as if the roads will never end. However, many people speak of that “fork” in the road…ya’no the whole “i have two paths in front of me, but which should i take sorta thing…?” Well as i was on my journey on this road i knew that precise moment would arise so throughtout all my success and failures the only thing i could do was learn from them. As im riding down i see it…in the distance…the two roads that i could choose. At that moment my life flashed before my eyes. Every funny moment, every moment of sorrow, every moment that took your breath away…there…before my own to eyes. Now i’ve been told that whatever i do the people that are there for me will support me no matter what. but we all know if you make a descision there not happy with then it will rot the mind for a second or two. Anyways…[yea sorry i do get side tracked...LoL] so im here at the “fork in the road” and i start to think of everything ive seen, heard, and experienced on this particular journey so with that in mind i choose niether road started to create one of mine own. one were no one is welcome. one were the trouble wont follow. one where ill never have to look over my shoulder anymore. one were the heart also will become cold if not careful. So upon creating this “new” road instead of the two previsously shown…i shall take it, and see where this one takes me.

“…never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. but if must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. if you must steal, steal away from bad company. if you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away…”

• Now guess who said that?!
• LoL

Premiere Poet Society

“Dear, Summer…” x “Tell Him, Tell Me”

• “Dear, Summer…” by PremierePoet

  “She made me tap into the other half of me,

  That other half of me tapped into different parts of me,

  & those parts of me introduced me to the many entities of me.

   

  I became everything I was afraid of,

  I was,

  what have never wanted to become.

  A bright soul, now afraid of the light;

  A dark knight, sinner amongst  angels, afraid of the day.

   

  Afraid of the day only because of the dreaming, wishing I truly did have the things I was seeing;

  So I aided my sleep, to escape the nightmares searching for peace beyond the realms of my well being.

  The control of individual thought was lost at moments,

  The desperation for companionship left me hanging from the noose of social acceptance.

   

  She made me place my goals on hold,

  Put a price tag on my soul for Satan to bid at an auction for my mind, as my thoughts lost value, just as my morale decreased and began to spiral towards hell, scorching inferno where my beliefs meant nothing…

   

  She made me think without thinking,the true essence of the tipping point, so my hands are now tainted with the sins of others, my wrists are bruised with the remnants of the laws metal.

   

  She made me bridge myself from place where true love and the heart….home.

   

  She made me realize never to have expectations too high, especially when its her turn…

   

  Dear Summer,

  Dont EVER! fuck with me again!

  sincerly,

   me.”

• “Tell Him, Tell me” by PremierePoet

  “Its ok shed a tear or two

  But only when I am alone lost in the memories of me and you,

  And what could have been…

  regretting the past praying that God could time travel

  Back to when I 1^st laid on eyes on you…

   

  It was a beautiful day in the life of the once luckiest man alive.

  I, Loved.

   

  You, Loved.

   

  Us.

   

  But now that time has reached its point

  when tomorrow is never a guarantee and waking

  to see your smile is a selfish desire that I share with no one,

  I can only just sit and shed a tear or two

  When I am alone lost in the memories of you.

   

  I remember when you had a night with your friend and she told you just to confess….

   

  Just to come out say what you had felt for so long,

  I remember when you told me

  You would suffer and endure what comes, becayse I was there for you and I was all that you had,

  If you lacked my love  you were nothing, and willing to give up everything you posses; you asked that I forgive and accept you for imperfections and sin.

   

   

  You made sure I knew that you loved me, and needed me, you wouldn’t brag or boast, get jealous, but you played your role, kept our love on the low, established love wasn’t loud. But if our love were to be music, it would be slow tempo of our heart beats mixed in with the soft angelic chime of your voice saying….i love you.

   

  I remember when you told me,

  When I was down you whispered in my ear that everything will be alright…and that is what touched me the most….

   

  So yea…its ok to shed a tear or two, especially when I am alone with nothing but the memories of you…but thank you. You told me you loved me.”

…THANKS PREMO!

Im Losing Her…

I seem upset she says…i say…nothing is wrong, but of course nowadays no one ever knows whats really going on anymore. i guess thats the price i now pay for burning my bridge to civilization. alone with nothing more than four walls to start a new foundation to. she cries as she says…”Ernesto, i am goin blind…” my mind, erased of all thoughts. my heart, skips a beat. my body, becomes weak. the only thing left to do at this point is to comfort her. make everything she sees from now on more extrodinary.

“what am i going to do without her…?” is all i can ask myself while i cry tears of sorrow. will this make me stronger? will it make me weak? of course the answer is both…i will become weak when that day rolls around were she wont be able to see my face anymore. but after i will gain an incredile strength from her….she is were i learn to become strong from…

what will it be like when i have to hold her hand and guide her through the rest of her life…? it feels like i am all she has nowadays. i cant imagine what it would be like to have soooo many people that love you but you cant see them. is it like being dead? hopefully ill never know. but i make it a promise to do the things i’ve always dreamed of with her…i love her and she loves me. and now the only thing that i can think of is what memories do we have left to create and cherish…?

• “i wana scream so loud for you.”
• “i no i act a fool, but i promise you im going back to school.”
• “i appreciate what you allowed for me.”

…i just want you to be proud of me…