Im Losing Her…
I seem upset she says…i say…nothing is wrong, but of course nowadays no one ever knows whats really going on anymore. i guess thats the price i now pay for burning my bridge to civilization. alone with nothing more than four walls to start a new foundation to. she cries as she says…”Ernesto, i am goin blind…” my mind, erased of all thoughts. my heart, skips a beat. my body, becomes weak. the only thing left to do at this point is to comfort her. make everything she sees from now on more extrodinary.
“what am i going to do without her…?” is all i can ask myself while i cry tears of sorrow. will this make me stronger? will it make me weak? of course the answer is both…i will become weak when that day rolls around were she wont be able to see my face anymore. but after i will gain an incredile strength from her….she is were i learn to become strong from…
what will it be like when i have to hold her hand and guide her through the rest of her life…? it feels like i am all she has nowadays. i cant imagine what it would be like to have soooo many people that love you but you cant see them. is it like being dead? hopefully ill never know. but i make it a promise to do the things i’ve always dreamed of with her…i love her and she loves me. and now the only thing that i can think of is what memories do we have left to create and cherish…?
- “i wana scream so loud for you.”
- “i no i act a fool, but i promise you im going back to school.”
- “i appreciate what you allowed for me.”
…i just want you to be proud of me…
When things such as this happen, I am usually prepared with a metaphor of sorts that probably doesn’t make sense but lets you know I care and feel your pains.
I have no metaphors for you, but….the care and pain….gotcha on that.