Nothing Left
Go away! Go away! Fuck off! there’s something inside…wants to let loose, wants to destroy, wants to scream. All sorts of things that seem horrible but when listened to and though about…seems as good as the offer that Hitler made to Germany [NO PUN INTENDED]
will you help me? when i need help?!
will you be there? when im stuck?!
nope…what about him…or her…? nope..cuz ive seen it all, the one’s that ask “why”…you can go fuck yourself! the one’s that had no believe…cut the break line on your car and hit 100 m.p.h. on a freeway. For those of you look at me different…o well..i guess ill just look at you differently now too. The disagreements…i encounted them…
For example that first night…he swang, i swang, he pulled out the knife…he said…
“walk away and never come back…”
I ask “what if i do…?” and he replies…”then you’ll have nothing left!” i was tired of living in their shadow…in their spotlight…never to shine on my own, except that ONE night were nothing mattered. Where the night faded as i did. Looking in the mirror…i see…i see…i see….i cannot tell you what i see. cuz everytime i look i see something different. maybe i should take a picture…it’ll last longer..LoL. The cars, the money, the rush…all of it…gone! but im glad it’s gone…nothing to worry about and nothing to care for. The heart…ehhh who needs one in this buisness…certainly not me…i had to learn to let it go. but there is something i held and never spoke of…it was….well…i guess ill hold onto that forever.
- To my future wife, “hi”
- To my future son, “hi”
- To my future house, “hi”…LmAo
To my future itself…”come get me!” nah i aint ready but if not now then when? when im at their house? eating their food while they explain to me how they got it all. nah fuck that shit! straight up! fuck all of that…yea you’ll get yours…and i’ll get mine, and when i do….
I’ll have nothing left…
Leave a Reply